Thursday, August 25, 2016

Quarter-life crisis.


Since I turned 27, every year, a few months before my birthday, which is in October, has been very difficult for me. I am now turning 32 and this year has been the worst.

Even though I have the most supportive husband, beautiful kids, a stable job, our own house and a car I still feel that there is something missing in my life. I am sad most of the time and been crying whenever I am alone. May it be in the car, in the office or at the mall. My life has been full of ups and downs. Name it and I’ve been through it (I think). But what’s most stressing me out is that not a lot of people, including the ones closest to me, choose to understand or even ask how I am doing. People tend to judge you without even knowing what you are going through. When they see you happy and enjoying yourself they will jump to conclusion that you are already a bad person. That you are not taking care of your family. That you do not love your kids anymore. Which is totally not true. It is sometimes wrong that you show people that you are happy although deep inside you are partly broken.

I am a strong person. I’ve always been the life of the party. I love to go out and be with my family and friends. But whatever it is that I am going through hinders me from being myself.

When I am at home, I just love to stay in the room and be alone and cry with no reason at all. During the weekends, I love to be outside partying the whole night. I want to be surrounded with people younger than me. I want to do the things young people are doing these days. I envy their youngness (if there is such a word). I envy their generation (not that I am not proud to be a 90’s kid because I love it, see the confusion?).

I lived a happy life. I had a pretty decent childhood. We may not be well off before but we had almost everything that is necessary to live. I was fed, housed, loved and educated.

At 19, I was a stow-away. I went with my, now, husband and lived separately from my parents. I was an undergrad. We started really rough and poor since he was still studying then. I had to work nightshifts, full-time at a very young age. Now that I am older, I just suddenly realized that I was not able to enjoy my younger years. I was not able to party, do overnights with friends, drink till dawn and travel. Not that I am regretting what I have now because I am really grateful and thankful for all of it but I just feel so incomplete and unhappy. And this is REAL. TRUE.

I fear getting older. I fear DEATH. I fear the future. Not sure why or if I should be. I made some research about what I’ve been going though and I found out that there is such a condition so most likely I am not the only one experiencing this.

Gerascophobia is an abnormal or persistent fear of growing old or ageing.[1] Gerascophobia is a clinical phobia generally classified under specific phobias, fears of a single specific panic trigger. Gerascophobia may be based on anxieties of being left alone, without resources and incapable of caring for oneself,[2] Sufferers may be young and healthy.
Symptoms include the fear of the future and the fear of needing to rely on others to do daily functions. Many also fear they will not play an active role in society when they get older.”

Although, the reasons stated are not the same reasons that I have, this sums up what I have been feeling.

It’s hard. Really hard. As I get very emotional easily. I get very irritated easily. I feel very alone easily.

I did this writing to express myself and to be able to tell people that this kind of thing is serious. I do not know if this is depression already or maybe part of my post-partum. Not sure until when I will be feeling this way. But I hope that I’ll be back to my jolly self soon.


I hate it when people tell me that this is just all in my mind and that I can easily get through this. They keep on telling me to just look at my blessings. Who doesn't want to do that? Who wants to be lonely? Who wants to cry all the time? Again, I am really proud of myself for what I have achieved. I am happy with what I have. But family and status are not my issue. This is something rooting from deep inside of me.


We all go through different issues and struggles. We have different strengths and weaknesses. And everyone has a different way of dealing with stress.

I am sure that people will still not understand this. That they will raise an eyebrow when they read this. But this is me saying that I don’t care. I will get through this at my own pace. I will not rush. I am intelligent and I know that I will be able to surpass this. But for now, I will just try to enjoy life as much as I can. With the support of my husband who loves me so much.



I hope this helps others in some ways. Let’s do this together.




Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Kimukatsu: My Katsu of choice

Decided to go a little Japanese for my husband's birthday and we wanted to eat somewhere that we have never eaten before. Good thing we were not wrong in opting to go to Kimukatsu. It is a quaint little restaurant in High Street. Unlike the other famous Katsu house, this restaurant is simpler and smaller.

They offer 25 layers of mille-feuille Katsu in multiple flavors.

The ambiance is nice and warm. And the food choices are really mouthwatering.


The servers are welcoming and always have a smile on their faces.

Ebi Fry- 1pc- 130

Scallop Fry- 1pc- 120

Cheese Katsu Set- 390

Salmon Set- 490


Katsu sets also come with unlimited rice, miso soup and shredded cabbage.

I strongly suggest this restaurant. The value of your money will be surpassed by the taste of their food. Good job!


G/F Bonifacio High Street, Bldg 7, 7th AveFort Bonifacio, Taguig(02) 809-0333

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Valentine's Day 2016 the Mona Lisa way

I don't usually get excited about Valentine's day. But, this year it was different. We had our reservation in place a few weeks ahead of time because we know finding a good restaurant may give us a  hard time. We have also planned to invite my parents and our children on this date.

The mall was full-packed this day and most of the restaurants are fully-booked as well. So, good thing we made our plans already.

We ate at Mona Lisa Ristorante which is located at the 5th floor, SM Aura.

Risotto Mona Lisa- Solo 370
This is a good risotto. Even my 2-yr old daughter loved it.

Canneolloni ai Calabrese- Grande 600
Filetto di Manzo alla Griglia- 1200
This one's a bit underwhelming. The price doesn't really justify the serving and the taste.

This was my second time in this restaurant and I think that the first time was better.

Friday, February 12, 2016

Ikkoryu Fukuoka Ramen- a taste of Japan

I'm back! And this post is worth the wait.

Ikkoryu Fukuoka has branches around the Metro. I've been hearing rave reviews about it and so we tried it to see if it really is worth the time, money and effort.

Coming in to the restaurant itself is very relaxing, The ambiance is cool and the staff are very welcoming. There are not too many people when we went there so the serving of our orders didn't take long which makes me even happier.

Ikkoryu dumplings- 5pcs- 180
 The best dumplings I've had so far. It is sweet and spicy at the same time.

Ajitama Tonkotsu- 380
 Their ramen is good for one person only, unlike in other ramen houses which can be shared. This one in particular is nice. But, it is not that creamy and savory.

Aburi Chashu Tonkotsu- 400
However, this one is really for the win. It is creamy, savory and saucy all at the same time. I have tasted a lot of ramens from different Ramen houses and I can say that this is the best I've had so far.


This experience had me thinking of blogging again. And I am hoping to be of help to people who want to try different dishes but are adamant to. Enjoy!